I live in my heart

I have decided that this will be my new slogan for 2011 and maybe for the rest of my life!  I received this email from Tracy today and I just absolutely LOVE it!

Lauren,

Someone forwarded me this today. I thought it was fitting! LOVE YA!

"I live in my heart. So it really doesn't matter where my body lives. If I am happy inside, then I live in paradise, no matter where my residence is."

Have a Great day!!

So true.

I am going to start focusing on where my heart is.  Honestly, my heart is in Pekin, where my husband lives, which is the reason I moved here in the first place.  How was I to plan exactly what would happen in our lives?  I can't plan my life.  I can try to maneuver it in the direction that I would like it to go in but I can't plan it.  

That's my problem.  I try to plan EVERYTHING.  What is wrong with just going with the flow sometimes....and enjoying the flow?  Maybe the best things in life aren't planned.

 I always remember the quote, "life is what happens when your busy making plans"...

I say I love that quote but sometimes it's so easy to get caught up in all the planning, the parties, the get-togethers, the dinners, etc... (which by the way I LOVE!)

I don't want my time down here in Peoria to just be lost because I want to leave so badly.  I will never be 25, 26 or 27 again...EVER.

I will never be able to get this time back.  The years where we have just gotten married and the only things we have to worry about are what to make for dinner, what to do on the weekend, our jobs, paying the bills...basically ourselves. This is where we are right now, enjoying only being married for 2 short years.  I don't want to look back with regret and think, man I had such a bad attitude down there because all I wanted to do was leave.  I am going on the record saying that I am thankful for this personally challenging time in my life.  It is making me a stronger person and helping me to understand that everything in life does not come to you exactly how and when you want it to.

So the next time someone asks me, "why would you live here" or "why did you move here" or why did you move from Gurnee down here"  I am going to say that I moved here to be with my husband and I am going to own it and be ok with it because it is the truth.  

Also thanks to Jackie who reminded me after a couple of martini's that it isn't all up to me.  

Sorry to get so spiritual, mushy etc....

I may be getting myself in trouble here because I know the next time I even mention the fact that I can't wait to move up north, Shaun will direct me right back here.  But you know what?  That's okay because sometimes I need directing back.

you know?

This year I will live in my heart.  

Here.

Cheers to mushy emails that make you really think.